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2011 1st post

2011-04-03T21:47:00.000+08:00

Listening to: Tonight.

2 more days our 9 months anniversary!
i must say, it's been tough, real tough. to get through to this stage. he's been tolerating with all my nonsense all this while. i annoy him in many ways and he still decide to stay put with me. such a sweetheart ain't he? baby, i love you with all my heart. i've put aside all my past cause i know i have a future with you.
i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. these 3 words will be gone once u're back here.
i love you.i love you.i love you! these 3 words though, WILL NEVER GO AWAY. NEVER!
hearts you baby <3
nights.

*from what i know, you're the only man i fall for now and then. :)

NEW DAY! :)

2010-08-14T09:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

14 AUGUST 2010

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

it''s been some time :)

2010-07-27T11:24:00.000+08:00

alot of things been happening this past few weeks :D

and all of it is AWESOMEEEEE!

party with friends

party with Bby

go for a drink with Bbygirl

meet up with Bby's parents

go to pub

went to Universal Studio

Powerhouse is the best! :))

and much moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I LOVE MY BABY FIORETTI!

bye suckas!

what i have now

2010-07-05T20:03:00.000+08:00

he's my love.
he change abit of my everyday life.
he's there to make a smile on my face.
he's a sweetheart.
i love him. yes, i do.

thank you <3

goodnight!

Felt it

2010-06-18T00:41:00.001+08:00

Movie marathon with him! Woots!
Malam!

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Ohhh!

2010-06-14T23:14:00.001+08:00

He got into cd! And yes, serving ns!
Now no him on weekdays , only weekends :(

Last week was.... Awesome?? Hehe..
It's like club drink gone. Haha!
I like to fly!!! Jyeah ... It makes me happy!
Only at that moment.

Goodnight!

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Was

2010-06-06T23:50:00.001+08:00

That's how it end.

Prince of Persia was alright. Not that nice.
It's just that someone have to lower down his thing called being CONFIDENT . Right?? :)

24 hrs of not sleeping. Now's the time.
Goodnight!

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Missed

2010-06-03T20:40:00.001+08:00

I'm just having empty hopes for myself.
Tell me, why do I even wait? :'(

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Bad

2010-06-01T21:31:00.000+08:00

Her life is much worse than what I'm gg through now. Sorry M .

Wednesday night baby! :))

Goodnight.

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I survive!

2010-05-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

Those good times we had :)
Those will be the best memories for me.

Nights.

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Starting now

2010-05-29T22:44:00.000+08:00

Try sleeping with a broken heart,
Is what I am going through right now .
That's all I can say
:'(

Nights.

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This week

2010-05-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday dearest helmi!
:)

Farewell.

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The worse

2010-05-24T10:09:00.001+08:00

I did type a long post but eventually. It was not meant to be posted out because It went to a blank page. WTF.

Anyhoo, 29 is the day that someone will leave me like forever.
And now, I have 6 days to get over you.
I hate you for making me love you.
U've been such an awesome sweetheart towards me and I know I won't ever get someone like you.

Miss you D. :(
The month of January.

*and I must say that you are the best I've ever had. For sure.
Goodbye my almost love.

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Trying

2010-05-18T13:15:00.001+08:00

I knew from the start that if I make this decision, it will hurt me in the end. Still, I'm stubborn enough to do it. And now I'm at my breaking point and I don't know what to do now. I hate letting myself be in this way because I feel that i'm weak mentally . I'm always putting a fake smile whenever I'm out. But when I'm alone at times, I'll start to have any kind of thoughts running through my mind. I just hate it. Even when I'm trying to pull myself away from this,it will still hang on to me. I hate to think. I hate to know that I only got one choice to make in the end. I hate when it comes to falling apart. I'm glad that I have a day off. I need to be in a peaceful place with drinks and ciggs. And maybe just a friend to be with me in case I break down. Sentosa will be an ideal place.
Leona Lewis song makes me calm

Good day.

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Goodnight

2010-05-12T00:23:00.001+08:00

Hiiiii! Hehehe :)

This week is an aweesooomeee week !
Going to be.

It's Wednesday already. No plan
Thursday , gg marina bay . Maybe a movie will be good. And dinner! Kenny rogers?? Hmm..
Friday? Ohh! Go home or movie? I'll decide..:

Saturdayyyy!! Hehehe...
Partaaayyy! Helipad baby!
Farewell party.. If it's bbbbbooring, rebel! Here I come ! :) :) :)

Sunday... Still deciding ...

I like what I type.
Goodnight fuckers.

Oh! Not smoking for 2 weeks is gooodd!

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Upcoming!

2010-05-05T09:41:00.001+08:00

Hiiii! Hee :)

I've watched ip man 2 and it's awwwweeessssoooomeee !
And today I'm going to rot and home and watch ip man 1 since I've not watch it .
I left my keys at work. Sooooo! I can't go out today ! Haha..
Damnn it!

Pay is in 2 days time! I loooooovvvveee it. :)

Thursday I'm meeting miss ernna and we're gg to chill bebey! It's been sometime since I meet her and have a talk with each other. She got a ring . I'm happy for her.

Friday, heading to the club with my work colleages! Yeah!
It's a sad thing that most of my part timers is underage. Damn!

There's a alot of things going on in the month of May
And i hope everything is going to turn out great!
ESP 15 of may but I'm not looking forward to 29 of may.

I have to say goodbye to someone like forever. Shithead.
Hmmm.. What to get as a farewell gift?
Something purple is what I know.
I'm still thinking.. .... Zzz!

Goodbye!

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Doubt

2010-05-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

& I thought I could keep the feelings to myself. I feel awful. I'm upset. Disappointed. Lost.
Idk how to tell you. I just know that it's still with me.
A box of ciggies will help now but I've so called stop. Fuck this shit.

Whatever it is, I rest my case.
Ftw!

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Some time

2010-04-26T23:53:00.001+08:00

I've been busy? Nahh.. Hee. :)

It's just that, I forgot that I even have a blog.

I'm with work Sya Lina Netty Shafiq Dan Fendi
Ohh, there's a comma between all that.
Club? Not so much. Just once or twice.

S_________? nahh... It's been 6 days already and I'm proud of myself :)

Tomorrow I'm in morning shift and I need to sleep!
But I can't cause I'm waiting for my blooody crops to grow in my itouch!!! Damn it! Haha! Yes; I 'sanggop'

I'm not fine. Like for real.
And I'm living in lies. Like Wtf.
I haadddd it!

Goodnight bitchoooossss! :D

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Lost

2010-04-14T00:41:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wish life will be much easier. And I really think that life is cruel. And I'm not kidding, money will make you happy till you get out of this freaky world. Everything doesn't go your own way. Emotions getting you to no way. Be it sad or happy. Feelings that your unsure about and have to think it through. Sacrifices that you've make all this while is actually nothing. Hardwork that you've been through all this while, nothing gain from it. It's just sad that everything is turning against you. So sad.
Live and die? After going through all shit and stuff. Ohh, it sucks.
Goodnight.

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Fuck!

2010-04-08T04:48:00.001+08:00

Dammit! It's like 4plus in the morning and hives got in my way! I was asleep! Urgh!!! I totally hate it!
Sick sick sick!
Oh fugg.

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Bad friday

2010-04-02T02:11:00.001+08:00

Bored.sleepy.tired.
Bby's not home yet .
Goodnight.
Hate later. Fuck.

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Off!

2010-04-01T14:04:00.000+08:00

Went to johore.
Went to zirca/rebel.
Visit old store.
Met up with all my fcukers!
Gg home late at night.
Chilling at starbucks.

I'm getting f a t?! Fuck it. Hahahahaha!
Bye.

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Early me

2010-03-31T09:57:00.000+08:00

This is random, but I feel like going to the club today. Haha!
Since tmr. I o f f.. Why not ? :)
Goodbye:)

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Monday!

2010-03-29T01:31:00.001+08:00

Yeah! Pegi Johor! I excited!
Cannot ah?! Hee :)
I'm going to miss u baby!
Satu hari sahaje -_- woots!

I'm addicted to all my itouch games, huhu.

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Boredddd

2010-03-26T16:15:00.001+08:00

I'm a fat bastard! Hahahahahhahahaha!
It's raining and I'm gg out later. What an ass. Need to bring umbrella . Shit . I need to get studs and I'm gg to visit the old store later, wanna have my cookies!!hee. I like!
Idk why I'm stuck with chocolates now.
My off day, soooo mundane. -_-

Still, I love my bf :)

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Busy?

2010-03-18T14:24:00.000+08:00

My btt is coming up. I'm nervous.
Have a feeling that I will f a i l. :(
But, I'll still study no matter what.
I have my e trial on Friday and Saturday.
And my btt is on Saturday itself too.
Like, I must fucking wake up early in the morning!!! Damn u!
I have a good sleep just now. It's awwwweeessssoooomeee!!

*that boy is mine. :) ily.

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Just that

2010-03-15T01:54:00.001+08:00

I will love you.and it needs plenty of time to discover oneself. I can do it. :)

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Yea!

2010-03-10T23:46:00.001+08:00

I learn how to skate!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Heehee
I suke! :)

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Out!

2010-03-09T10:49:00.001+08:00

Good morning!! I'm awake! Even though I went home at 2am yesterday. I'm not that sleepy anymore.
I'm meeting my Babis/babies later on. We're going ice skating at kallang! Wee! And the thing is, idk how to skate. Awesomee or what?! Not.

I ask syahdup to come here. Hehe. Since linatime haven't wake up yet.
I'm going to pierce my ear today. If there's a place. I need a new bag.
Ohhh ohh, someone is getting for me a baby g watch. Hee !
Happy happy me!!

Yes yes, I'm much more cheerful now.
I hate my past. It sucks. Tears, suck.
Ohh well.

I enrol my license already!!! Woo!
And now , I have to study! -_- alahhhhhh.....

*I know that it takes time to accept all kind of truth.

Friends=fun!

2010-03-03T21:50:00.001+08:00

Hi hi!

Byebye!! Hahahaha!

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Daily planner

2010-02-26T01:19:00.001+08:00

Bills bills bills
Work work work
Off off off
Club club club
Smoke smoke smoke
Sleep sleep sleep
Spend spend spend
Eat eat eat
Drink drink drink

And, die die die
Hell hell hell!

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Of u and me

2010-02-21T23:46:00.001+08:00

Facebook currently suck

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The weeks

2010-02-17T18:18:00.000+08:00

How's now? I'll say it's been preety good.
Although sometime it sucks, somehow something and someone cheered me up. I've been spending my time with my beloved colleage. They are awesome! And they are there for me.
Work? It's alright.. Nothing seem to change except one of them decided to go Mia instead of being a MIT. Haha! Funny.
I've been on my one day one meal thing. It worked for one week but not now. It's my time to do some craving already.hehe..

Alot of things have happened even it's only for a few days.
Some things still kept me thinking and I don't know how to face it when that day come. For what I know, I'll definitely hurt myself. :'(

I know how it feels to fall out of love.

Another day pass by

2010-02-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

Oh hello. :)
One word, I'm tired.
Coughing suck and the flame too.
Pay day is coming and all my list is out.
And I'm all ready! That's something that I can look forward to. Wee!

I've been spending my time with mostly, my bitches.. And I love them even though they are such an ass!

I'll be at Amk hub for the whole freeeakkkinggg week and idk what's nice there. It's hugeeeee!!!!!

I just did the set up, full shift! O m g .
And it's call, comittment. -_-
that's how work goes right?
Nak retired boleh?

I've been thinking.....
Hmmmm.....
:)

Goodnight all!

it's FEBRUARY!

2010-02-02T11:29:00.000+08:00

how i am? i must say i'm still doing fine. :)
im stuck with working.
to release all my stress, friends & colleages is the best place to get all my laughter back. wee!
my schedule is somehow good and bad, afternn 3 days straight, morning, off, morning afternoon off. -_-
& i've change my blog song, soo, awesome! come and steal it. hehe. :)

i've been spending my day and night well and im loving it.
Saturday was the memorable day out of all days in JANUARY 2010. so yeah. :D
fun fun fun!

my life is now getting better. i love it.
goodbye! :))

Saturday

2010-01-23T11:08:00.001+08:00

And today, my last working day for this week :)
Afternoon till closing,1 on mc. How sad.
And I'm feel so alone,running the shop alone:(
On a brighter note, Sunday I'm on my off day! Awesome!

Someone,pls light up my l i f e.

The word I'm fine

2010-01-22T18:01:00.001+08:00

I somehow wonder to myself if I'm okay with what had happened or just hiding the truth. Idk what's the reaction should be cause everyone been asking me whether I'm okay or nt and I will reply yes I'm fine. I'm fine? Is that true? I find that my feelings is a weirdo.haha! Well,what I know Now is that I have and must move on cause that's the only way that I can do.I do have choices but I rather let nature takes it course.I'm too tired too fight for my rights.I live only once and my concentration is now, work my ass off! And enjoy myself to thee fullest!! :) awesome!

*Do you love me back after what I've said to you,awesome?

Starting of a new beginning.

2010-01-21T09:29:00.001+08:00

Good morning fellow readers! :)
I just woke up and I'll blog.
As for today,I'll become a nocturnal human who's gg to do the vm changes for the shop.-_-
I'm gg to have my breakfast the next day! It's been awhile since I took a proper meal. Always been having maggi. And my hair is also falling out.dammit!
Mummy cooked spaghetti today!

Friday and Sunday I off!! Wee!
Friday I'm gg o have dinner with my gay frens and as for Sunday, I have no plans yet.

I'm kind of hate and love this itouch of mine cause when I type,it doesn't go my way and I'm the one who have to retype it again and again! Frustrating.

Idk what I've been typing but I think it somehow make sense,right?

I'm fallin for you
.... .....

*and so,I'm officially ......

Mundane.

2010-01-17T23:25:00.000+08:00

Hello!!!!!!!
It's been sometime eyy? :)
Life's have been rocky for me.
Having ups and my downs every single time of the day.
Well here I am,lying on my bed,typing.

There's alot of news been gg on and I rather be ignorance cause it's not even a good one? Shits.
I'll just mind my own business?? Haha! Like real only!-_-

I bought myself an itouch .wewiit! With my own hard earn pay !
Like duh. I can say that I'm half independent.half only...
I'm now officially go for grocery shopping :)

I have alot if things to buy for myself.
1. Laptop
2. Phone
3. Camera

Awesome!! One month one thing! Must must!!
At least somehow I have my aims.

Guudnyttteee. :D

month of December.

2009-12-07T00:12:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey! i'm back! but only for this week. hehehe!
yes yes, i went MIA for 1 whole month. that's because my computer plus my lappy went bonkers.
and i think it's my mum fault. :)
well, i've been fine. great?not yet really. but it will happen.
Boyfriend is back in my arms once again and here we go again! another waste of money again when pay day comes. oh ya, my pay came on the dote. i'll check it later on. woohooo!
i got 3 plush toys already. cause we played the catching game! fun & hilarious!

the good news, PEOPLE! i'm going to Somerset 313. hell yeah!
i got transferred! see you guys around.
& when you see me, pretend you never did. okay? :)

byebye! this will be the last post? idk.
maybe i'll be back.

HAPPY 14th to US! woots!

*in the meantime, i'll be with my baby.

sad here.

2009-11-07T00:35:00.000+08:00

depressed. disappointed. what now?

see the days

2009-11-06T09:56:00.000+08:00

Listening to: waking up in vegas

i'm waiting for the right time to bath, eat and go out. awesome. -_-
this is going to be a short short short post.

baby's coming back soon! 5 more days and i'll be back with him once more.
can do the things that we always do. yeah yeah! :p
i love you!
his flight is at 4am. anyone want to company me? ^_^

eh, i hungry. how?

*i spend my time with you almost 24/7, it's lovely.

my only wish.

2009-11-03T23:55:00.000+08:00

Listening to: =)

it's going to be 12am soon. wow! how time pass so fast . and it's going to be the next soon.
i'm so happy when this happen. 24hrs gone one by one. woohoo!
Saturday, alert alert! payday! :) weewiit!

i've been contacting my indonesian friend and i like it!
she accompany me at night when i'm alone.
isn't that right bitch? :)
i know you love me. hahaha!
2 years, i'll wait for you. bleah. okay2, for real.

i'm having my RDO bebey! i need that, damn right!
i have not yet recover from my illness. thank god sister save me from going to the clinic.
she gave me her medicine cause her sickness is the same as me.wee! :)

baby, 8 days more! i love you!
i actually enjoying the counting of days.
you know why? cause time flies FASTER than i thought it would.
i've yet to give baby 11th gify. and i know he will like it, love it, wear it!
i know you'll love me for this. :D

*i won't let my emotion control me ever again. hear that E? won't!

i wasted 3/4 hours .

2009-11-02T21:27:00.000+08:00

Listening to: when your gone

guess what? i've work 16 hours . truly do. without having a proper break.
from yesterday 4pm to 8am in the morning.
i slept, but for awhile and i know it's not enough.
and another bad thing is, i'm in the morning shift next day.
apparently, my body's now aching everywhere. sad.
and now i need to sleep, & wake up 6am in the morning.
8 hours of sleep? where got enough right?

baby, 9 more days. i miss you.
it's going to end soon.
i love you.

*my sickness didnt' get anywhere.

i'm with the best

2009-10-31T13:36:00.000+08:00

Listening to: Number one.

it's the 31st OCTOBER . and it's going to be a month of NOVEMBER the following day.
i'm looking forward to it.

1. less than 24hrs to our 11th.
2. 7 more days to pay day.
3. 11 more days to home sweet home.
4. looking forward to 1oth NOV.

I LOVE NOVEMBER? :)

i was suppose to post 2 headline today but i forgot what is it about. silly me. ohh, nvm.
i'm proud of myself that i survived throughout this 2 weeks. *applause.
i'm going to get myself a Baby-G watch and G-shock watch for him. ^_^
i'll be working 4 to 2am tmr. shit!
goodbye fuckers.

*only thing in my mind, i love you.

the word miss

2009-10-29T21:09:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Stereo Flow

i miss going out with you.
i miss sleeping on your arms.
i miss watching movie with you.
i miss playing the arcade when we have nothing else better to do.
i miss eating supper with you @ Mac.
i miss visiting to your awesome house.
i miss getting a nag from you when i'm being stubborn.
i miss messaging you 24/7.
i miss going out with you and went home @ 3am.
i miss quarrelling with you even it's a small matter.
most of all, I MISS YOU. :(

NOW,
i msg you 24/7 without you replying.
i call you listening to the engage tone.
i get to wish you for our anniversary in msg but not looking at you in person and say it.
i dream of you but didn't get a chance to touch or feel you.
i see your pictures with me but not getting to meet you in person.
most of all, I NEED YOU. :(

3 more days & 13 more days.

* i'm yearning for you.

a day pass by

2009-10-27T00:10:00.000+08:00

Listening to: i don't love you MCR

it's going to be the Tuesday when i post this post of mine.

1 week 1 day have past. and i'm only left with 2 weeks and 2 days. isn't that long?
but i BELIEVE in myself that i'll be patient.
i can do it! maybe i shall and will look forward to my pay day instead of that day. hee. cause that will be goooooooooooodddddddddddddd... :)
i've plan what to buy and with who. awesome!
i have my review just now and it went well ! i like!
everything is going smoothly, amin.
tomorrow is my RDO, i need to SLEEP WELL. and i need to RECOVER.

i love you & i miss you dear.

*words of wisdom always work on me.

forgiveness please

2009-10-23T21:02:00.000+08:00

Listening to: Falling For You

i'm rather piss off with the people at work. they throw tantrums. i don't like it. i rather they ignore people then scold someone who didn't do anything wrong. i hate the working environment. angry.
should i even think of work even when when i'm off duty?

Yesterday i met BF,she's not alright . but i hope that it does make a difference when i'm there. even if it's just a 1% cheer up.
i love you. don't you ever hurt yourself again.
i got a news from her about him. that, brought me to tears after listening what she have to say.
it's a sudden i felt what he felt. he still suck it in and trying his best to go on with it.
i admit, i am in the wrong. i'm sorry, i mean it.
this is what he will get soon, Happiness from me. that's a real promise that i've made.
you sacrifice alot for me. alot. without me knowing it at all. sorry, again. :(
i'll never leave you by your side again. i will change for the better of me and you.
i will put away my ego and my stubborness towards you.

* it won't end as a goodbye ,
instead, forever and always.

my comments

2009-10-22T00:46:00.000+08:00

Listening to: you belong with me

i do bloghop, every single time when i go online. i love to see how people live in their world. it's totally different from everyone. interesting i must say. strangers to friends too.

we communicate through the net, awesome!
i'm tired of working but i work because of $$. no one supports me now. sad.
i'm having my off day, yeah! but i need to go to my workplace .

my say to define the word LOVE.

Love have all kinds.
Love is blind and tends to ignore oneself flaws and accept it even though it's not perfect for you.
Love is about give and take.
Love always brings ones' relationship closer after a quarrel.
Love is when it makes your heart skip a beat everytime you're with the one.
Love is what makes you think you want to have it for the rest of your life.
Love is what breaks ones' heart.
Love is something that you will learn every single time you fall out of it.
Love is what i call fate.
Love makes you want to cry your heart out.
Love is what makes your world seem perfect.
Love is when you know that one person is going to make your life miserable and still you are stubborn enough not to let it go.
Love is what makes your ego grow bigger.
etc. . .

THAT'S THE LOVE, FROM ME.

here's something that i am in right now,

A part of me wants to leave you alone
A part of me wants for you to come home.
A part of me says I'm living a lie.
And I'm better off without you.

A part of me says to think it through.
A part of me says I'm over you.
A part of me wants to say goodbye.
A part of me is asking why.
A part of me wants to leave.
But a part of me wants to be here with you.
And everytime I think we're over and done you do something to get me back loving you.
And you got me just torn.
Torn in between the two.
Cuz I really wanna be with you.
But something's telling me I should leave you alone

There were no issues when we started out.
It was cool.
It was everything that love's about.
But something happened.
Plus I'm feeling so burnt out.

Cuz I can't understand you now.
A part of me says it's all my fault.
A part of me says he ain't what you want.
A part of me says to get my bags.
A part of me says I can't do that.

So many times I was ready to go
So many times I Had my foot out the door
So many times I thought to give him a chance, thought he'd be a better man
Now I'm sitting here and I'm so confused.
Cuz I keep fighting myself for you.
I don't know how much more I can take but I can't feel this way
You got me so torn

*however, i still love and miss you.

late at night

2009-10-20T02:10:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Number One

last post = not enough time and type shit stuff. haha!

i was half done with my next post but my lappy shut off by itself when Sya text me. shits.
and here i am, typing, a different thing.

it's at 2am , in other country? hmm. . . . i'll search it. but how eh?
my mind is at peace now cause the moment of problems is gone. it came. yeay! :)
i recover mentally but not physically cause i'm right now coughing knnbccb. sad. i got the sicknesss from someone. and i know the cough won't go away , it's been a week already. get well soon ME.

2nd day, why am i counting, it will just make it worse right? but i couldn't help it but count. damn.
it will pass fast. I HOPE. i'm occupying myself with work, almost my whole fucking week. minus 2 days off.
everything will be safe same goes for the return. i know you guys have absolute no idea what i'm hinting about but you will know soon enough.
for my previous post, F_______ does not stands for Fuck okay. it stands for F_______.
and that's why i say that's what keep me wanting to continue in this.
i know i will be treated well in time to come but it won't be so soon. the time will come. i have hope.

news flash: i heard that the working hours for Somerset 313 is from 11 to 11. and i was like , WTF.

today's plan:
wake up, bath.
go out, Yew Tee.
after that, Meet Sya.
then, Go HOME.
tmr, WORK.

hahahahahaha, i got no life laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.shits. i want to go to school.

* i know you'll be safe, amin. ( i know it's in ENGLISH! )
a prayer from me to you. take care.

away for a while.

2009-10-19T10:37:00.000+08:00

occupied with work and friends.
i'll will survive till the day it come to an end.
F_____ makes me believe in this.
that's how i'm going to make things good.

* it always feels awful.

two topics?

2009-10-15T00:01:00.000+08:00

Listening to: pretty gal

PEOPLE,
i've been observing people in the stores for the past 10 months. and i felt that they are somehow cruel or maybe they didn't know what they do hurt oneself emotion.
things that they usually do, saw the item, don't like it , leave it just like that.
at the cashier, threw the money literally & i know as for me, it's rude. i'm sure if you work , you won't want people to throw ur change on the table and not giving it on your hand right?
at the fitting room, people tried it on, you don't like it, you leave it in the FR itself with all the hangers. the least that they can do is, hand it back and give it to the person who takes care of the FR right?
I THINK THAT THIS ALL BASIC COURTESY. =)
if you are this category, please stop doing it. thank you. much appreciate.

THOUGHTS,

Can’t count on you most of all when I really need it
It’s the simple things that you do really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it
This can’t work anymore, than you believe it
Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe
Add how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
Add how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
I just don’t know what the problem is, what the deal is
Was I there too much, did I move too fast, I couldn’t see it?
All these promises are probably how you deal with it
I’m tired of hearing you say your innocent
Don’t think I forgot
Because I really didn’t, who cares if you’re lieing or not
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe
We all make mistakes
Sometimes we do desperate things
What does it prove? NOTHING
And you never do nothing wrong
Then what took you so long, took you so long
Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on

* and it's all because of you.

i'm stuck here

2009-10-13T00:18:00.000+08:00

Listening to: Party in USA

i have lots to say & i don't know where to start and how to end it.
i can say that alot of things happen wiithin this week.

1st :
       i just had an outing at Sentosa. accompanied by Syahidah, Bebecca & Shao hui. we did, Pictionary, Scrabble & Taiti. Syah and i went for swimming but more to stay in the water and got hit by the WAVE. oh yes, Painful lah! headed to Vivo City , didnt buy anything cause i have to think twice. haha! damn.
went home, Mummy knows about my dirty lil' secret . Sort of but i'm not going to do it anymore. hee. Syah! we can do it! shhh. =)

2nd :
        about my pay, now left 3 digits already and it's sad. and it's only the 12th of OCTOBER. wtf. cannot survive lah me. i need some extra $$$ to survive till the end. that's all about this.

3rd :
        actually i've deleted my blog and decided to make it alive one more time cause i can't bottle up all the problems to myelf and i rather let it out here. tagboard? i don't think so. music? can consider. pictures? NO. people do read my blog . :) and, that's about it.

4th :
        Boyfriend's going to Australia in this Sunday, 18 october. i don't know what to react about this matter but i did, last night and that's the reason why i'm now blogging here. i felt that there's a need to write down here cause i don't know how to let it out to my close ones. yesterday it triggered me that Bf is really going away for the whole month and got me thinking, ' why does it feel so wrong? ' 'what i should do?' 'will history repeat itself again?' . all this Ws came. maybe i'm just confused. i have my own reason for what i did.and it's because i care about us. we're always on the rocky road which i myself hate it. giving stress and all , work stress. what more can i handle? i can't, anymore. i keep losing a strand of hairs every single day and it concerns me. it really does and i'm serious about this. i don't want to have a break down in the middle of somewhere cause i know it sucks. i really think that Bf stress level doesn't compare to me. we have different responsibility and i can't handle two in one problem. it's hard and it's giving me tough time here. i use to be stress free but now it's all over. i have to think about every single thing . i have to be an independent 18 year old girl. 18? handle all this shit , HAVE NO LIFE. :'( i wish i can live in a fairytale world . reality treat me like shit. i hate it. i know i'm being an emotional person, i admit. i am in that category now. help me , please.

5th:
      the person i am today is all the person/experience that taught me in the last 18 years i'm living. i've gone through alot even though i'm only a teenager.i'm still a teen. teen=freedom. as for me, not at all. i have issues to deal with. i hate being me. i'm not studying and already have a full time job. i rather study than work cause you only have to use ur brain and not physically. it's mentally. i want to go to school. relationship, i suck. that's the only word that describe me in that topic. i had my ego and of cause i don't admit it. i'm stubborn. i'm always in the win-win situation. i don't listen to what people advice me. i can be cruel at times cause someone so heartless taught me that. left without a word have make me weak and stronger after that. getting cheated and make me like a fool have make me to be as heartless as that someone i once knew. and karma had already punished him. making me suffer in a ward just because of him have taught me not to trust every single one of their kind. i've prove myself to be someone strong in the outside but not inside. i'm weak when it comes to this and i'm only good to put on a show till the curtain close. i've given my best but in the end , there's always a regret written in me. always do.

i'm ending here.

*i feel disgusted for myself : (